The real of Me

...Kelly...

A gal that always wish for a better life, waiting for the impossible boyfriend, and wanted a group of true friends, and more... Will that come true in the real life? She talks straight, she hurts people with those word which she never knows she's hurting them, and this is her bad habits. Can she improve to a better Kelly? She selfish, she never know. All the true to her was the cruel to her.

Firstly, she wants people to understand her, but did she understand them ?

Secondly, when she heard something that she dislike, she used to smack the person.

Thirdly, she talks everything without using her's brain.

Fourth, she wont stop talking. (Talkative)

Fifth, she never care other people feeling when she having a joke with others.

Sixth, she wants people to listen to her, but she never listen to people.

Seventh, she had a great relationship and friendship, she never appreciate it.

But once she lost, she got nothing at all. And here I am... the gal who writing this post. I been hurt and I did hurt others. Apology is just a word, a very useful for the first time, but not for every time. Thousands of apology aren't work to the person who being hurt. A lovely couple can end up their relationship with no feelings, a true friends can end up their friendship with a long time treated badly and keep on repeating the same mistakes.


And I'm the person who treated them badly and repeating the same mistakes. How worst am I? Thanks for letting me know all the true, may be my shout out are foolishness and childish, but it's sincere from me, I really want to know more about myself from the mirror of my friends.


No need more explanation. If the friendship is that weak.. I think my apology is not enough for everything. I will follow what my best sister want me to be. To stop disturb her life, and sorrowful session will be start now, on my own side.

To a long-term relationship, we already done our part.

To a long-term friendship, we still can fixed it up.

I open my heart to listen everything u said to me.
I might even be a better Kelly in the future, as long as people willing to give me a chance, and walk with me, consult me, fixed all my bad to the best. And here I am, prepare for accept the real me and my real friend. If these funny and Bullshit, please just ignored it...

Thank you.
End up with some recent photo.

Sincere from Kelly.
Goodnight.

All or Nothing..

It's been a long time I dint upload my blog.
And I don't even know what should I write in this blog.
When I come back here, I know I'm missing him.
I take a long time to calm down, and not going back to him.
We met up, we faced and we talk about some little stuff.
I know I can't completely let go everything,
but I'm learning.
I stop everything related with him,
no message, no call, no msn, no meet up, no dreams.


Before the day,
I'm proud of myself, I'm happy with my life,
and I keep going on with my single but unavailable life.
After the day, I'm lost.
I back to the weakness of me, and keep on thinking of us.
We used to be together, we fate for it, and dream on everyday.


What so powerful that make me feel like we used to be?
NO.... He only want for my help,
and I'm willing to done everything he need.
Please awake, Kelly...
he won't come back, don't think too much.
To be strong and move on,
even that we met up, don't walk back to the weakness.


I don't want forget everything belong to us,
just let me keep all about us in the deepest from my heart.
Even we know that we don't have a chance to recouple,
I'm willing to be everything he need.
How pain how hurt I may receive, I'll be fine...


I don't wish in the future, I will forget everything,
forget his sounds, his smile, his action, his behavior.
This is the only way to make me think of him,
and nobody can take it away.


I don't wish to be forgotten.
A gal that fall in love with a man.
We staying near, but it's too far for us to be together.
I will remember any of everything, and I want to smile again.
And I'm hope I will smile with the same the Man.
Cause I want it all, or nothing at all.


Goodbye, My beloved.
Goodnight.

I will Move On

A song~

This road that I'm taking twists and turns
My life my chance turning dreams into reality
Down this path faced with so many things
Sometimes I feel like giving up and turn away

Can't seem to go on
And I've been thru' this before
Now where am I? Where do I stand?
A little lost here
But I'll remember
All those times you've bought me through
I'd be a fool to give up cos' the goal is near

I'll move on I'll go on
Lord I will take your hand
And you will guide me along
Survive thru' this storm
So I say come what may
I'll hold on to my hope
Yes I will walk down this road
And my passion drive will lead me on

Here I am Once again caught in the rain
Looking back I've come so far and I want to carry on

Take a step a little time it's alright
Even through this rain
I want to smile again

Don't hold back now
And I've been thru' this before
Now where am I? Where do I stand?
A little lost here
But I'll remember
All those times you've bought me thru'
I can feel the sun shining down on me

Here I am Here I am
Lord I will take your hand
And you will guide me along
Survive thru' this storm
So I say come what may
I'll hold on to my hope
Yes I will walk down this road
And my passion drive will lead me on
~end~

Recently, illness followed me too tight, it's around a month I keep on ill-ing.
And I'm started off with everything related him.
I'm very concerned about him. I'm be everything he need.
Sacrificed, Pained , Tearful, Sorrowful, Lifeless...
He deserve for me to do that.
I know that he don't like it..That's why I'm going to stop embarrass him.
Pretend that he never be that cruel to me, he just went to a very far place for his biz..
And I just can drop everything here, but not with him.
Hopefully, one day he will come back to me.
Let me make up for what happened in the past,
and start a new beginning, you're one in a million.

Goodnight, my love.
sweet dreams, Kelly..

Oppssy....

Emm...... Just know that i had received a wrong info from a friend.
Kinda stupid and funny~ heheeeee~
But just left it la... Nobody will know what's wrong with my blog mistake...
Is about a Date...related with the last post, about the travel date. >.<

Sorry~

^^ Our precious ^^

Never know that The Movie make him change a lot..
He is not a Drama addicted...
But this is the first time I saw him superb love all about the artist - movie, drama and songs...
It's Miley Cyrus and also named Hannah Montana..
It's awesome, he love it, I love it...
He is a superb busy man but since when he became a drama addicted, and a fans of Miley Cyrus...
He will only put his time on those meaningful movie and drama..that everything related with Miley.

And now, it turn me to superb love everything about Miley...
I grab everything related in the web,the movies, drama, songs, video clips, interview, gossips, photos and etc....

I'm waiting for the coming week, one of my friend will bring me back the 3rd season of Hannah Montana from Australia.. and just launch on 7th of July... which is today...

Mr. C going to Bali today,and wish him from a very little heart of me, healthful and enjoy the travel...

Take care, biz man...

Business man story

July came.. I had lost my mind....
Jun past.. we have to move on....
I fall in a wrong relationship. I'm waiting for an empty..
I have a scar in my heart. It's deep, pain, and unforgettable.
He was right, they were right.
I should move on, and searching for a better life.
Hope that I can make it..
They said that good things take time,
but really great things happen in the blink of an eyes.
I know that we no longer a couple. Not yet a normal friend.
We need time to recover.
As now, peoples keep asking why I'm still holding on.
My answer, I don't know.
Between, Love and Like are different,
I love him? or I just like him?
I don't know how to express my feeling,
He is not my everything, but a part of my life.
He left me with a very good reason, and I accept it.
I fall in love with everything he like...
The movies, the songs, the artist, and the life...
All about us, was just a fantastic dream.
I love to dream in his life.
In this dream, I found myself, I found him, and us.
I never think that I will awake one day.
But seem he ask so, I have to move on.
Never thought that I will be like those girl in his heart.
He told me before, how he treated those girl that admire him. It's annoying him.
Seem everything clear and I know how he feel how he think.
For everything I done is just to concern him but not annoying him.

Time and time again I tell him, and
time and time again he won't believe me.

The place that you shows me how deep you love me.
~09/12/07~

Biz man story will be end up soon.
waiting...


Goodnight, Mr.C and Ms.Kelly

Latest Gifts

I went to The Gardens last Friday, with 2 buddy - Trega and Viene. I had bought 1 wallet for my brother as his coming birthday present and 1 purse for myself. So far, that day morning I had been received a good news and a bad news. It's all about Us.... whatever I think I dream, all was just between me and myself. He already gone far away from the point... That's why I bought myself a purse, to replace the oldness present(my old purse) from him...

Goodbye the past, Welcome the newly.

Salvatore Ferragamo

My purse for myself.

A/X

A wallet to my lovely brother.


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My mum birthday coming soon...
Mr. C birthday coming soon...
I have to buy her and him a present too.
Faint~ I spend more than I earn in this month.

Challenge it, I can make it perfect.

Superb emo day and night

I had done some silly things again...
July came, I totally lost my mind.
I annoying him, I talk to him,
I concern him, and I had been rejected.
Again and again...
It's pain and keep on hurting me.
People said that I'm a trouble maker,
maybe, I'm...
Keep on hurting myself even know that we wont have a happy beginning.
Let's start a new life new Kelly....
Wake up...
please wake me up from the sorrow life.
This might be my weakness.
I live in a very long time ago.
and waiting...
his message,his call,
his response, his everything.

Foolishness, Disappointment, Disapprobation.

Goodnight, Miss Kelly..