Bad Day~

What a unlucky day~

This afternoon, I went to BBK a Bank to meet my fren n gonna pay for my 2 months of P1 bill... No more than a few minutes, I make a call n i walk to the main door...
Gosh~ i fell down... n scratch my leg... Pain~
I can hear everyone laughing on me...
Whatever, keep on my call...
After my payment, i went to the cash deposit machine, guess what??
The stupid machine stuck my cash inside the machine n without making any transaction.
Finally, i have to make a report at the counter n wait for 2days then can get back my money.

The report

After all this, I met him.. yes.. the same place...
Gosh~ I never tot that i will met him there...
I saw him in front of me, n i can heard my heartbeat..
I walked near his back, n touch his shoulder,
he turn n smile n asked "why are you here?"
cause he know that i won't go this place.
Without answer him anything, n he rushing n he go~
Hiuz....He can't heard it... =)

Back to my part, once he left the place, i receive his msg...is not a goodbye...
" Your car kena saman le" FUNNY~~

The yellow-white paper (Saman) that always cause my dad scold me...

A bank cause me fell down, my cash stuck in a machine, n kena Saman... unlucky...
Hope that it's just happened today.

Smile =)
have a nice day , Goodnight...

Emo Gal Day~

Emo emo emo...
what a emo day i had been today~
I am quite busy, yes i am...
Busy with my LAN subject assignment,
busy with my dad calculation work,
busy chatting n talking with friends,
but once everything stop...
something should not appear in my mind...Stupid
I dreams again... flew flew flew far away...
NO NO NO, i can't keep on dreaming...
Someone please cheer me up.

A sweet word from him, i keep on referring.
"Because of her i dump you,
because of her i back to you,
because of her i know how much you love me."
Why my sweetness that little short, just stay with me the 2 weeks,
can't more than a month? can't till the month of August? o October?
If i never found it, i hope i wont awake until today.
I'm sorry babes, i disappointed all of u again...emo..

I'd be lying through my teeth if i told you , that i'm ok..
May came, i thought I had it all together,
until you said "I need some space"
Truth be told, it's so hard to accept.
One eye on the clock, and one on the phone,
It's 3.15, i'm feeling alone,
If i could talk to you, i would want you to know,
I'm holding loose, but ain't letting go.
But I just miss you right now, I said, i miss you right now.
Baby, take all the time you need, i just want you to know
I will be here, waiting..

Hugging my pillow, writing this post, hearing some songs,
replying some message, gossiping some hot topic,
pressing some game, and killing my time..
Forgiving those bad, welcoming the new,
waiting for fate, hoping some miracles,
wishing for my happiness....

GoodNightz~

My Beloved ~

Saturday,
a day he quite free in d morning,
a day my off day,
a day i told him my feeling,
a day i cried without anyone know except him,
a day i know that i already step back to him,
a day i promise to be a clever gal, be a good daughter to my mami...

Happy Mother's Day (I LOVE YOU, MUM)

A very emo day for me,
because of some small thing. *silly Kelly*
I dint receive his goodnight n good morning...
How could i so emo for this?
I am mad, i feel uncomfortable, i wan his msg...
I hate this feelings, i walked through before.
Is not what i want... i know the story ending..

I started these feeling after the day i came back from Cameron...
180 degree changes of him, that i predict in last post..
He wont treat me nice,
he wont ask me come out,
he think back her...

A week time, i only receive 1 missed call , and 1 call from him in a day which is today.
Missed call tat wanna let me know he reach d n waiting down stair, but i missed it.
Call me in d midnight, with many sounds, i answered it, but without any of his voice.
I hang up and called back, and guess what i get from him?
"ohh... i accidentally press de." he answered.
After this? *crop* hang up d call...

That's all for me? Yes....
I am worthless for him, so that he wont care more.
He is rushing finish all his things and fast fast get to d bed,
because he have to wake up quite early in the next day.
How about me?
I drop my tears again... why? i don't know...
I started told him my feeling and he most hated :'(
I swear i am not making him stress and just to make him clear.
Maybe i am emo today,
I started argue wit him...

" Why people love sweet n blessed?
Why my love suffer?
What had i done wrong to get this LOVE?
Do you love like me? "

I know he hate that, i should not said it out.
Is that good for me to telling him all my feel??


If he is not my real man, i wont hope that much.

If he really do love me, i am holding the last chance to trust him.
If he do prepare for a new beginning, i welcome his arrive.
If he is a liar, i will smack his head off. *joke*
But i serious with him... =)

If my tears was fake, i am happy for that...
Hope that good things come for me all the way,
Bad things, bad guys, GET LOST...

Complicated relation wit the business man

Sometime, i wondering am i think too much...
sometime, i questioning myself "who am i?"
sometime, i worry bout him, worry bout myself, worry bout us.
sometime, i jealousy, bout the pass.
sometime, i drop my tears without doing anything.
sometime, i confused...

Should i go out with him?
Should i meet him?
Should i miss him?

Today, i cry on his shoulder, but he dint realize tat my tears keep dropping.
cause he fall asleep in d early morning... *broken heart*
I can felt tat he is not the same person tat i met before, but i still fall for him.
I told him everything, told him tat i went for club quite often, and tis n tat..
Just to exchange "their story".
He dint voice out anything, only something tat i ask,
All show tat he is still miss her,
althought he is answering he no more missing her, but i can feel it.
"When u wish for your future life n your love partner, who was appear in your mind?"
"She n me." he answer.
what make he fall so deep on her?
because he never get her?
she is still a fresh and challenging him?
I hurt tat i am face wit him and he answering me those question.
I almost drop my tear in front of him. i think he know tat..
This is our trip, is memorable, sweet and meaningful.
I came out these topic wit him, maybe i am disappointed him.
But i cant keep hiding everything, is hard for me.

Maybe he wont ask me out after this.
maybe he wont treat me nice.
maybe he remind her back.
maybe he know my feel.
maybe he know what to do next.

If she still inside your heart, why still come back? why still wanna try go on wit me?
If i am not a replacement, who am i?
If im the only one, why different feeling?

You know i am weak, and i will easily fall bak and forgive.
You know i need a real man,
you know i need protection, stabil n confidence relationship.
you know i love you,
you know i don't wan keep praying.
You were praying too...
Praying that she will stay longer and forever with her bf.
What we praying for??
Praying for their blessedness...
Funny and Stupid (me n you)

Is unfair for me, if one day she came back and im going to hurt again.
Should i stop fall in love wit him?

Broken dreams... goodnight...