Complicated relation wit the business man

Sometime, i wondering am i think too much...
sometime, i questioning myself "who am i?"
sometime, i worry bout him, worry bout myself, worry bout us.
sometime, i jealousy, bout the pass.
sometime, i drop my tears without doing anything.
sometime, i confused...

Should i go out with him?
Should i meet him?
Should i miss him?

Today, i cry on his shoulder, but he dint realize tat my tears keep dropping.
cause he fall asleep in d early morning... *broken heart*
I can felt tat he is not the same person tat i met before, but i still fall for him.
I told him everything, told him tat i went for club quite often, and tis n tat..
Just to exchange "their story".
He dint voice out anything, only something tat i ask,
All show tat he is still miss her,
althought he is answering he no more missing her, but i can feel it.
"When u wish for your future life n your love partner, who was appear in your mind?"
"She n me." he answer.
what make he fall so deep on her?
because he never get her?
she is still a fresh and challenging him?
I hurt tat i am face wit him and he answering me those question.
I almost drop my tear in front of him. i think he know tat..
This is our trip, is memorable, sweet and meaningful.
I came out these topic wit him, maybe i am disappointed him.
But i cant keep hiding everything, is hard for me.

Maybe he wont ask me out after this.
maybe he wont treat me nice.
maybe he remind her back.
maybe he know my feel.
maybe he know what to do next.

If she still inside your heart, why still come back? why still wanna try go on wit me?
If i am not a replacement, who am i?
If im the only one, why different feeling?

You know i am weak, and i will easily fall bak and forgive.
You know i need a real man,
you know i need protection, stabil n confidence relationship.
you know i love you,
you know i don't wan keep praying.
You were praying too...
Praying that she will stay longer and forever with her bf.
What we praying for??
Praying for their blessedness...
Funny and Stupid (me n you)

Is unfair for me, if one day she came back and im going to hurt again.
Should i stop fall in love wit him?

Broken dreams... goodnight...