Truly Deeply Sincerely

I have a nightmare, a terrible nightmare.

It wakes me up, and no one was beside me.
My tears washed my face, I cant see everything clear.
I need a peaceful mindset, I need a rest.
I wrote you a text, that I know you unable to reply,
but I do so, just to let you know that I'm fine.
I'm still tearing in the middle of night,
the feeling of scare cover my bed.
Seriously, I need you beside.

I played the music to relax my mind,
I recalled the way you treat me well.
From the other side,
I played nothing in your world.
I started worry about myself,
I should not choose to step in your world,
I cant see me even my shadow.
The words you gave I hope it is true.
No commit any future kind of thing,
I just want the true and sincere from you.

Truly Deeply Sincerely

~ 200912090009 ~ ❤ x 2

A special date for me. Not a full 2 years Anniversary.
But it's a promise for us. Recall me 2 years before.
When you sent me back home after our date, we took a walk.
We walked along the road, you hold my hand with tight.
I can feel the nervous of you. You scare to confess at the moment.
That was really funny and sweet, finally my answer was Yes.
That our story begun.
Unfortunately, we been separated for 5mths in this year.
I never thought we will back together and I'm not confidence with our recouple.
Just don't expect too much, and take some time for us.
We may walk though this , we may not.
But for the memories that will never fade in my life. Our story.
Amazing part, I will remember and appreciate it.
Thanks everything that you gave but I most wanted is the only one.
Hopefully that will come true and stay forever.

The present is on my hand.
I like it very much. I know it costly.

Appreciated. :)

A cute and special one ~❤

The Valentine couple bear.
Guess he already forgot he have a bear.
They have been separated.
How are you, the little bear.
Are you still in good?

A doll from him.
How sweet how surprise when I received it.
Anyway, I loved it because someone look like The Pooh. :D

I'm happy these day happened on me.
I wish for a doll and I get a Pooh.
I wish for a message and I get more than that.


Thanks, guess I'm thinking too much between us.
I know, i know, we are just friend.
Thanks for make me more sure with my feeling.
I love to be dream.
Leave me alone when you are not able to wake me up.
Just wake me up when the correct time. :)
Miss ya~

❤ Summer Love ❤

I been wrote for couple months ago, there some emo post, it's about my love story, and label it as "biz man story". From the Spring to the Summer season, and I always said I'm okay.... I wake up anytime I like, I went for party whenever I want, I bet with friends for not purposely contact with the man. It's work, it's really work. Really??? I don't know how long should I take to let it go.

When I see if the sun will rise, I know a night pass by,
and he moved far a day time, that I can't reach by.

The pains we make, the scars we left,
it's like fresh, it's like just Yesterday.

Tell me what is it all reaching for. We got nothing at all.
I have been try not to think, not to think.
But it's like recall me.
When the time arrived, where the place I went.

I know I will see him again in the future I'm sure,
that's not selfish to ask for more,
one more night one more day,
one more smile on his face,
I'm willing to see him once again.

And it's a little conversation, he shake my heart away.
No need corrections, no need for judgment.
In the corner of my mind, I know to well
that surely even I deserve the best.
Please wake me up when the correct time.

Heaven knows what the future holds,
or least where the story goes.

Sunset Happiness

想笑 来伪装掉下的眼泪
点点头 承认自己会怕黑
我只求 能借一点的时间来陪
你却连同情都不给.

想哭 来试探自己麻痹了没
全世界 好像只有我疲惫
无所谓 反正难过就敷衍走一回
但愿 绝望和无奈远走高飞..

天灰灰 会不会让我忘了你是谁
累不累 睡不睡 单影无人相依偎
夜越黑 梦违背 难追 难回味
有谁肯安慰..

我的世界将被摧毁
也许事与愿违..
也许颓废也是另一种美.

日落灿烂,可惜不长
玫瑰花香,可惜多刺
百合动人,可惜短暂

My sunset Love.
My sunset Happiness.

A Love Debt

Never say I love you,
when you don't really care.
Never talk of feelings,
if they aren't there.

Never hold my hands,
if you mean to break my heart.
Never say I'm the one,
if you dream of more than me.

Never look into my eyes,
if you are telling me a lie.
Never say hello,
if you think you will say goodbye.

Never say forever,
if you ever plan to part.
Never lock up my heart,
if you don't have the key.

Never promise anything,
if you will drop all your commitments.
A broken promise is a mere scrap of paper.

We make them cry who care for us.
We cry for those who never care for us.
And we care for those who will never cry for us.

Love the heart that hurts you,
but never hurt the heart that loves you.
Because for the world you maybe someone,
but for someone you are the world.

This is the truth of life, its strange but true.
Once you realize this, its never too late to change.


Goodnight, Ms. Kelly.

I will Move On

A song~

This road that I'm taking twists and turns
My life my chance turning dreams into reality
Down this path faced with so many things
Sometimes I feel like giving up and turn away

Can't seem to go on
And I've been thru' this before
Now where am I? Where do I stand?
A little lost here
But I'll remember
All those times you've bought me through
I'd be a fool to give up cos' the goal is near

I'll move on I'll go on
Lord I will take your hand
And you will guide me along
Survive thru' this storm
So I say come what may
I'll hold on to my hope
Yes I will walk down this road
And my passion drive will lead me on

Here I am Once again caught in the rain
Looking back I've come so far and I want to carry on

Take a step a little time it's alright
Even through this rain
I want to smile again

Don't hold back now
And I've been thru' this before
Now where am I? Where do I stand?
A little lost here
But I'll remember
All those times you've bought me thru'
I can feel the sun shining down on me

Here I am Here I am
Lord I will take your hand
And you will guide me along
Survive thru' this storm
So I say come what may
I'll hold on to my hope
Yes I will walk down this road
And my passion drive will lead me on
~end~

Recently, illness followed me too tight, it's around a month I keep on ill-ing.
And I'm started off with everything related him.
I'm very concerned about him. I'm be everything he need.
Sacrificed, Pained , Tearful, Sorrowful, Lifeless...
He deserve for me to do that.
I know that he don't like it..That's why I'm going to stop embarrass him.
Pretend that he never be that cruel to me, he just went to a very far place for his biz..
And I just can drop everything here, but not with him.
Hopefully, one day he will come back to me.
Let me make up for what happened in the past,
and start a new beginning, you're one in a million.

Goodnight, my love.
sweet dreams, Kelly..

Bitter-sweet memories

I m thinking~
It's been a month we never meet each other,
How are you lately?
Is that meant we ending up?
We no longer a couple, not yet a normal friend?
How well do you know me?
How well do I know you?

I had changed, and I m lost...
I don't know is this the good way for us.
For you, your busy day replace everything.
Sounds great. Is that work?
For me, I live my life from day to day.
Hoping maybe you will come back one day.
Sounds emo, yes it's true...

I almost fail, fail to walk back to the past.
The one who never care your feeling,
keep on disturb you every early in the morning,
keep on ask you to accompany me,
to talk with me and listen to me.
Even know that you are in a meeting,
I will still put my anger on you.
Ridiculous..

But now, I go on my life without knowing anything about you.
Sometimes,
I may feeling alone in the late night before I go to bed.
I may drive my car to a place that we went through before.
I may holding my cell phone and typing your number.
I may thinking when will we meet up again.
I may wondering...everything goes fine?

A group of word I typed before,
我的回忆不是我的，我的快乐是自己的，
如果我们碰面了，我们会是怎样的？

If one day, we passing by each other,
I m sure I will smile and say " Hello".
Because I know that I miss you more than I can,
is really difficult for me to meet you and talk with you.
I will appreciate every moment being with you.
I will be tough enough.

Please take good care of yourself,
no matter how busy you are,
for the biz man....

^^ Thankx ^^

Thanks You for mak me wrote a lot in my blog~
I can't imagine tat i had wrote a lot of word inside my blog.
I started my 1st blog was last year,
It's bcoz of him...i show all my feeling inside.
I've been wrote 4 lot of word even i can't believe tat it's mor than my school essays,
I wrote n post all about my feeling n our story in my blog,
Is the way tat mak me feel better,

We can't talk nicely wit face 2 face, tat's y our prob still ther,
he don't know how 2 say n show his feeling to me,
bt he can type,tat's d way i choose 2 type 2 him,
i reali want him2 knw bt i can't do anythg...
We don't ever 2ppl calm down n talk nicely,
all was 1 side talk n 1 side quite,
tat's y i don't knw all about his feel,
All i get 2 knw frm d third party, bt tat all was a pass...
And now i know...
why don't u tell me? All the pain, the tear, the cry.
why i can't b lik thm?

Thanks for givin me evrythg..bt i miss it..
Thanks for lettin me knw how 2 show my feeling,
Thanks for let me learn how 2 write all bout myself inside d blog,
Thanks for givin me learn a lot of thg..it's meaningful.
Hope it won't b late for me 2 awake...

SINCERELY n TRULY from ME...

Be HappY~

Kelly Gal