I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairytale.

The sun will still raise everyday, no matter what had happened between us.
The day will still go on, like we never back together.
The river will still flow like the time past.
I couldn't tell you how much you meant to me anymore, there's no more.
I tried to be tough in front of you, as we know each other well,
I'm always the weak compare to you. But not this time, I'm moving on.
You was so fascinated. You seem like a part of my life.
It is not a good for both of us, we know. My stubbornness.
I review my older post, within a year many things changed.
Something happen in a sudden, something change in another minute.
Everything out of our expectation,
we feel surprise and sad but life's still go on.
I'm already behind hundreds steps of you.
But I believe I will never be late for reaching my happiness.
This will be my last for you, Mr.C.

You taught me how to be more independence,
you told me the future, just the beauty of the world we know.
I grown up with all this experiences in our relationship.
You won't understand how it feel. I would go through all this pain.
Thousands of thank you for bringing me up to the hill.
Thank you for waked me up in this wonderful fairyland.
The real world is waiting for me. Happy ending.

Truly appreciated, love.

Truly Deeply Sincerely

I have a nightmare, a terrible nightmare.

It wakes me up, and no one was beside me.
My tears washed my face, I cant see everything clear.
I need a peaceful mindset, I need a rest.
I wrote you a text, that I know you unable to reply,
but I do so, just to let you know that I'm fine.
I'm still tearing in the middle of night,
the feeling of scare cover my bed.
Seriously, I need you beside.

I played the music to relax my mind,
I recalled the way you treat me well.
From the other side,
I played nothing in your world.
I started worry about myself,
I should not choose to step in your world,
I cant see me even my shadow.
The words you gave I hope it is true.
No commit any future kind of thing,
I just want the true and sincere from you.

Truly Deeply Sincerely

~ 200912090009 ~ ❤ x 2

A special date for me. Not a full 2 years Anniversary.
But it's a promise for us. Recall me 2 years before.
When you sent me back home after our date, we took a walk.
We walked along the road, you hold my hand with tight.
I can feel the nervous of you. You scare to confess at the moment.
That was really funny and sweet, finally my answer was Yes.
That our story begun.
Unfortunately, we been separated for 5mths in this year.
I never thought we will back together and I'm not confidence with our recouple.
Just don't expect too much, and take some time for us.
We may walk though this , we may not.
But for the memories that will never fade in my life. Our story.
Amazing part, I will remember and appreciate it.
Thanks everything that you gave but I most wanted is the only one.
Hopefully that will come true and stay forever.

The present is on my hand.
I like it very much. I know it costly.

Appreciated. :)

Awesome food awesome weekend

- Bubba Gump, Pyramid -
04 /12 /09
Dinner with the love one,
we dint order much for our dinner,
An appetizer, a fish and shrimp and 2 cup of drinks for share.

Mango Sparkler
Mango, Lemonade, Orange Juice and Lemon-Lime
~ Canton-i ~
Second dinner with the Serena Bi and the Ong.

Awesome foods awesome night. :)


- 5-6/ 12/ 09 -
Nothing special but just an officially couple date,
with the bf's partners and family members.
It's awesome and sweet weekend for me.

The Saturday
The first time he brought me to the Borneo Rainforest Sunway
for drinking session with him and his partners.
The environments and peoples are different
with I usually hang out with.
But seem I already stop club for a month,
this place wasn't that bad. :)

The Sunday
Snap** while waiting for the bf :)

The puppy name Miko.

and another name Pom Pom.

All day long watching the love one fetch me here and there.
The last destination was the warmth family house party.
A simple but lovely family, I love it.

Doll for the week
*a gift from my lovely mummy*

Lovely gift lovely surprise. Goodnight.

Funfair Night ❤

- 2009.11.28 -

Ferris Wheel Spinning Kiss

I don't care how long that we can maintain.
Hopefully that will be forever.
Although, I'm the only one who remain it, I will just take it.
Yes I am, I am not that confidence with it.
But the heartbeat sound I heard when you beside me,
from the way you would hold me,
to the sweet things you told me,
and I know I cant let it go easily.

When you came back, I hope there's no more mistake between us.
I will appreciate every single moment that we spend together.

Forgiveness and forget all the bad memories.
Just to hope you will be my Mr.Right~

A cute and special one ~❤

The Valentine couple bear.
Guess he already forgot he have a bear.
They have been separated.
How are you, the little bear.
Are you still in good?

A doll from him.
How sweet how surprise when I received it.
Anyway, I loved it because someone look like The Pooh. :D

I'm happy these day happened on me.
I wish for a doll and I get a Pooh.
I wish for a message and I get more than that.


Thanks, guess I'm thinking too much between us.
I know, i know, we are just friend.
Thanks for make me more sure with my feeling.
I love to be dream.
Leave me alone when you are not able to wake me up.
Just wake me up when the correct time. :)
Miss ya~

很想说

我还是很想念你, 真的好想你，
去到哪里都想着碰见你，
但是我却没有那勇气的告诉你，
虽然同住在一个小小的城市里，
却没那么有缘分的遇见你。

你最近到底跑哪儿去，
在网里才得知你消息。
朋友都在鼓励我放弃，
我却一直都不争气。

我慢慢的学着不想你，
不去翻看你消息，也不翻开旧日记。
回想总是美好回忆，未来还是现实地 ，
答应自己不再去吵你，相信自己有天能忘记。

不久将由她来陪你，是你一直都在寻找地。
一起走，一起笑，一起打天下，
疼你，爱你，细心的聆听你。


我，真心的祝福你。

29/12/ 2007 present

From my beloved, my ex lover.
For the year birthday's present? Too late for October.
The year Christmas's present?
A New Year gift? A part of it..

A first present from him, my favor color watch.
Pink and white it's pretty match and full of cares.
Recall me a lot, have to be punctual on time.
No matter he with me or not,
I will try to remember all about us,
and keep all that we made.
Guess, he will get more better and nice life in the future.
Just hope that he will keep the story that we made.

A relationship go ups and downs, but we failed.
I don't know why the hell I'm falling for you,
but yeah the ugly truth is, I do.

A simple couple love. I miss you.
Goodnight, my dearest :)

A special day

~ 09/09/2009 ~

I have a normal day, my orthodontic appointment,
my calculation work, my dinner with the buddies.
And I miss someone.
He was right...
The day should be meaningful for the couple the lovers.
We had chat the night, about 10 messages. I guess it's enough. :)
He told me he is single and no need those celebration.
Wait until he get one, that's only meaningful.
I was disagreed. But something knock me.
Yes... I need his concern as well...
But too bad.. we already miss out... we already pass by..
Met his uncle and have a short conversation yesterday.
Recall me a lot about our sweet past time.
The family vacation to Cameron Highland,
this year Chinese New Year. It's warmth.


Because if your love was all I had in this time
Well that would be enough until the end of time.

Goodnight...

" Mua Ji " - Rice Cake Pie

- Tuesday's Night Desert -

A desert that make me think of us,
the first time I ate with my beloved.
Remembered I told him a " Mua Ji " story.
The night he was in Cameron Highland with his partners for training.
I'm in Klang with my mid-term test.
We talk the night, our laugh sounds night,
we share the night, our sweet past night.

The other day he came back from Cameron,
he bought me a box of strawberry,
a box of candy, and a box of Strawberry Mua Ji.
What a surprise... =)


Rice Cake Chocolate Pie - Strawberry

A stall in a coffee shop which in Meru.
They hand made Mua Ji and Tang Yuan.
The first time I have tried these with my beloved,
and now I have my desert with my buddies.
Different time, different feel.

A Mickey desert? - Tang Yuan -

For my relationship, I always miss him.
For my friendship, I'm on my way to miss them.

❤ Summer Love ❤

I been wrote for couple months ago, there some emo post, it's about my love story, and label it as "biz man story". From the Spring to the Summer season, and I always said I'm okay.... I wake up anytime I like, I went for party whenever I want, I bet with friends for not purposely contact with the man. It's work, it's really work. Really??? I don't know how long should I take to let it go.

When I see if the sun will rise, I know a night pass by,
and he moved far a day time, that I can't reach by.

The pains we make, the scars we left,
it's like fresh, it's like just Yesterday.

Tell me what is it all reaching for. We got nothing at all.
I have been try not to think, not to think.
But it's like recall me.
When the time arrived, where the place I went.

I know I will see him again in the future I'm sure,
that's not selfish to ask for more,
one more night one more day,
one more smile on his face,
I'm willing to see him once again.

And it's a little conversation, he shake my heart away.
No need corrections, no need for judgment.
In the corner of my mind, I know to well
that surely even I deserve the best.
Please wake me up when the correct time.

Heaven knows what the future holds,
or least where the story goes.

Happy Birthday to Mr.C

Every day's important,
but none more so than this,
may it be a day of love,
a day of utter bliss !

Have a year beyond your dreams,
where peace and joy abound,
have a great Birthday.

- Happy Birthday to you, Mr.C -

Will miracle exist ?

Did sometime something recall back the past of you?

That's touch and make you feel wanna drop your tears?
I did...
and each time I walked on this road, I think of someone.
When the day become night, I'm afraid to fall asleep.
Because I will dream of us, and I know that I can't control it.
Time pass slowly, our memory become weakly,
and I had forfeited my chance of keeping our memory.


I guess...
month to month, he will totally forget my appearance.
It's sad, I can't see him again after the last day we met.
I can't contact with him after his Big Day that coming soon.
His news, his stuff and his everything,
will be disappear in my circle of life soon.



I keep repeating this song, and I drop my tears once again.
It's touch me, it's meaningful, and a very nice song.

Reality are cruel, will fairy tale exist in real life?
Will miracles exist on my life?

End up this emo post with some today's photos.
Tonight just attended my brother's friend wedding dinner.
Congratulation....

Take a little time, it's alright.
I will be great.
Goodnight =)

All or Nothing..

It's been a long time I dint upload my blog.
And I don't even know what should I write in this blog.
When I come back here, I know I'm missing him.
I take a long time to calm down, and not going back to him.
We met up, we faced and we talk about some little stuff.
I know I can't completely let go everything,
but I'm learning.
I stop everything related with him,
no message, no call, no msn, no meet up, no dreams.


Before the day,
I'm proud of myself, I'm happy with my life,
and I keep going on with my single but unavailable life.
After the day, I'm lost.
I back to the weakness of me, and keep on thinking of us.
We used to be together, we fate for it, and dream on everyday.


What so powerful that make me feel like we used to be?
NO.... He only want for my help,
and I'm willing to done everything he need.
Please awake, Kelly...
he won't come back, don't think too much.
To be strong and move on,
even that we met up, don't walk back to the weakness.


I don't want forget everything belong to us,
just let me keep all about us in the deepest from my heart.
Even we know that we don't have a chance to recouple,
I'm willing to be everything he need.
How pain how hurt I may receive, I'll be fine...


I don't wish in the future, I will forget everything,
forget his sounds, his smile, his action, his behavior.
This is the only way to make me think of him,
and nobody can take it away.


I don't wish to be forgotten.
A gal that fall in love with a man.
We staying near, but it's too far for us to be together.
I will remember any of everything, and I want to smile again.
And I'm hope I will smile with the same the Man.
Cause I want it all, or nothing at all.


Goodbye, My beloved.
Goodnight.

I will Move On

A song~

This road that I'm taking twists and turns
My life my chance turning dreams into reality
Down this path faced with so many things
Sometimes I feel like giving up and turn away

Can't seem to go on
And I've been thru' this before
Now where am I? Where do I stand?
A little lost here
But I'll remember
All those times you've bought me through
I'd be a fool to give up cos' the goal is near

I'll move on I'll go on
Lord I will take your hand
And you will guide me along
Survive thru' this storm
So I say come what may
I'll hold on to my hope
Yes I will walk down this road
And my passion drive will lead me on

Here I am Once again caught in the rain
Looking back I've come so far and I want to carry on

Take a step a little time it's alright
Even through this rain
I want to smile again

Don't hold back now
And I've been thru' this before
Now where am I? Where do I stand?
A little lost here
But I'll remember
All those times you've bought me thru'
I can feel the sun shining down on me

Here I am Here I am
Lord I will take your hand
And you will guide me along
Survive thru' this storm
So I say come what may
I'll hold on to my hope
Yes I will walk down this road
And my passion drive will lead me on
~end~

Recently, illness followed me too tight, it's around a month I keep on ill-ing.
And I'm started off with everything related him.
I'm very concerned about him. I'm be everything he need.
Sacrificed, Pained , Tearful, Sorrowful, Lifeless...
He deserve for me to do that.
I know that he don't like it..That's why I'm going to stop embarrass him.
Pretend that he never be that cruel to me, he just went to a very far place for his biz..
And I just can drop everything here, but not with him.
Hopefully, one day he will come back to me.
Let me make up for what happened in the past,
and start a new beginning, you're one in a million.

Goodnight, my love.
sweet dreams, Kelly..

^^ Our precious ^^

Never know that The Movie make him change a lot..
He is not a Drama addicted...
But this is the first time I saw him superb love all about the artist - movie, drama and songs...
It's Miley Cyrus and also named Hannah Montana..
It's awesome, he love it, I love it...
He is a superb busy man but since when he became a drama addicted, and a fans of Miley Cyrus...
He will only put his time on those meaningful movie and drama..that everything related with Miley.

And now, it turn me to superb love everything about Miley...
I grab everything related in the web,the movies, drama, songs, video clips, interview, gossips, photos and etc....

I'm waiting for the coming week, one of my friend will bring me back the 3rd season of Hannah Montana from Australia.. and just launch on 7th of July... which is today...

Mr. C going to Bali today,and wish him from a very little heart of me, healthful and enjoy the travel...

Take care, biz man...

Business man story

July came.. I had lost my mind....
Jun past.. we have to move on....
I fall in a wrong relationship. I'm waiting for an empty..
I have a scar in my heart. It's deep, pain, and unforgettable.
He was right, they were right.
I should move on, and searching for a better life.
Hope that I can make it..
They said that good things take time,
but really great things happen in the blink of an eyes.
I know that we no longer a couple. Not yet a normal friend.
We need time to recover.
As now, peoples keep asking why I'm still holding on.
My answer, I don't know.
Between, Love and Like are different,
I love him? or I just like him?
I don't know how to express my feeling,
He is not my everything, but a part of my life.
He left me with a very good reason, and I accept it.
I fall in love with everything he like...
The movies, the songs, the artist, and the life...
All about us, was just a fantastic dream.
I love to dream in his life.
In this dream, I found myself, I found him, and us.
I never think that I will awake one day.
But seem he ask so, I have to move on.
Never thought that I will be like those girl in his heart.
He told me before, how he treated those girl that admire him. It's annoying him.
Seem everything clear and I know how he feel how he think.
For everything I done is just to concern him but not annoying him.

Time and time again I tell him, and
time and time again he won't believe me.

The place that you shows me how deep you love me.
~09/12/07~

Biz man story will be end up soon.
waiting...


Goodnight, Mr.C and Ms.Kelly

Superb emo day and night

I had done some silly things again...
July came, I totally lost my mind.
I annoying him, I talk to him,
I concern him, and I had been rejected.
Again and again...
It's pain and keep on hurting me.
People said that I'm a trouble maker,
maybe, I'm...
Keep on hurting myself even know that we wont have a happy beginning.
Let's start a new life new Kelly....
Wake up...
please wake me up from the sorrow life.
This might be my weakness.
I live in a very long time ago.
and waiting...
his message,his call,
his response, his everything.

Foolishness, Disappointment, Disapprobation.

Goodnight, Miss Kelly..

Little too much over....

I'm moody...I'm feeling down...
I had been searching for something this few days,
I hope that I can get it perfectly and on time.
I don't want any wrong timing between us.
We been separate for a couple of month, we already moved on.
We should be nothing. We are just normal friend.
But why? Why my tears will still dropping ?
Once I get to know about you, I'm care.
I believe in fate, as what you told me,
no forcing between us.
So you leaving me, and I'm letting you go.
I know this will be the hardness way for me.
But I'm learning to walk through this.
Sometime, I might be silly.
But I know what I'm doing.
I'm just doing my part to take care of someone that I love that I care.
No matter how pain how hurt I may receive,
I just wish I have one more chance to take care of him.
I'm just little too much over him.


Goodnight,
Biz man and Miss Kelly.

Bitter-sweet memories

I m thinking~
It's been a month we never meet each other,
How are you lately?
Is that meant we ending up?
We no longer a couple, not yet a normal friend?
How well do you know me?
How well do I know you?

I had changed, and I m lost...
I don't know is this the good way for us.
For you, your busy day replace everything.
Sounds great. Is that work?
For me, I live my life from day to day.
Hoping maybe you will come back one day.
Sounds emo, yes it's true...

I almost fail, fail to walk back to the past.
The one who never care your feeling,
keep on disturb you every early in the morning,
keep on ask you to accompany me,
to talk with me and listen to me.
Even know that you are in a meeting,
I will still put my anger on you.
Ridiculous..

But now, I go on my life without knowing anything about you.
Sometimes,
I may feeling alone in the late night before I go to bed.
I may drive my car to a place that we went through before.
I may holding my cell phone and typing your number.
I may thinking when will we meet up again.
I may wondering...everything goes fine?

A group of word I typed before,
我的回忆不是我的，我的快乐是自己的，
如果我们碰面了，我们会是怎样的？

If one day, we passing by each other,
I m sure I will smile and say " Hello".
Because I know that I miss you more than I can,
is really difficult for me to meet you and talk with you.
I will appreciate every moment being with you.
I will be tough enough.

Please take good care of yourself,
no matter how busy you are,
for the biz man....