Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Truly Deeply Sincerely


I have a nightmare, a terrible nightmare.
It wakes me up, and no one was beside me.
My tears washed my face, I cant see everything clear.
I need a peaceful mindset, I need a rest.
I wrote you a text, that I know you unable to reply,
but I do so, just to let you know that I'm fine.
I'm still tearing in the middle of night,
the feeling of scare cover my bed.
Seriously, I need you beside.

I played the music to relax my mind,
I recalled the way you treat me well.
From the other side,
I played nothing in your world.
I started worry about myself,
I should not choose to step in your world,
I cant see me even my shadow.
The words you gave I hope it is true.
No commit any future kind of thing,
I just want the true and sincere from you.

Truly Deeply Sincerely


Friday, March 5, 2010

Movie ~

A movie a high tea with the Bi and Ong. The movie was okay but they left out so much.. it's going to be hard for them to catch up. Anyway, I love Logan Lerman, think he is a great actor, and he is so cute. He's good in acting Percy Jackson. Well done !

Although I love sweet foods, but not today,
Bi own it her " Big Apple ".



I just like to be with the love one. How sweet they are ~

Monday, March 1, 2010

Dead blog relive !

Sorry for being a lazy girl who stopped myself of blogging here, so do my blog been dead for couples of month. I'd past the amazing part in this brand new 2010 year. Too much of fun, until I can't remember how I past the same date in the last year. But not today, 1st of March... The strange and silly feeling appear, feeling like killing myself.. after a notes from a friend. Feeling much more better. Quite long quite emo, overall it's knock my head off and awake me my situation. Although my Chinese was not that good, but I know there are some friends are more worth for my cares and loves. Start it now, learn it now, I live in my life, not in other life.

- Chinese New Year lack of sleep photo -
Hello !

A 2 months old puppy name Jacob, of course not what I though from the movie "New Moon - Jacob ", idea from a biscuit commercial. A super red Poodle, it's a little puppy still a lotsa noisy sound and bark whenever he need to pee-pee and poo-poo or foods. Is that hard to take care a puppy? I wish to own one as my boy. :D

- Serena baby Jacob -
I need concern as well, just like the cutest Poodle ever !

Sunday, February 28, 2010

痛了...自然就会放手了~

一个苦者找到一个和尚倾诉他的心事。
他说:“我放不下一些事,放不下一些人。”
和尚说:“没有什么东西是放不下的。”
他说:“这些事和人我就偏偏放不下。”
和尚让他拿着一个茶杯,然后就往里面倒热水,一直倒到水
溢出 来。
苦者被烫到马上松开了手。
和尚说:“这个世界上没有什么事是放不下的,痛了,你自然就 会放下。”

你可能觉得难过
因为无论你对他怎么好他都不领情
他不是看不到
他只是装作看不到
或者他根本不想看到
你觉得自己很喜欢他
甚至觉得再没有一个人可以像你那么喜欢他
你用尽全力对他好
把他看的比自己还重要
有什么事情第一个就想到他

联系不到他的时候你担心他担心的快疯了
然而你有没有想过
这并不在你的责任范围
而且很有可能他是在躲着你
他受不了你对他那么好
不要一直发短信给他
不要一直找他
你也许只是想找他说说话
你觉得那很正常不算苛求
但是也许他并不这么想

记住你的想法不代表他的想法
你是真的不求回报的在喜欢他吗
你扪心自问一下
你确定不用他回报什么吗
那为什么你会难过
若是真的一无所求
你又怎么会觉得难过呢
所以别觉得你那么爱他是伟大的
也许她根本不在乎你怎么为他付出
有时候你给他的爱或许是种负担

这种负担只会让他更加想远离你
因为他不想亏欠你
别事事为他担心为他张罗
你觉得他没有你不行
你觉得别人做不到你那么完善
但是你要清楚
你不是他要的那个人
你做的再完善也敌不过人家不做
自然会有人为他担心为他着急
不用你来费心

那个位置本来就不是你的
你何必硬要挤上去呢
也许曾经你们是相爱过的
但是请记住那是曾经
过去的就是过去了
如果大家真的适合在一起
那么当初就不会分开
无论是谁提的分手都一样
这段感情曾经就是存在破裂点的
不管是谁错结果都是一个你们分开了

分开以后
如果一方试图想挽回而另一方没有同意的话
那么这段感情就是过去了
他是理智的因为他已经明白了两个人不适合
而你还一遍一遍的告诉自己
你们当初如何如何相爱
不可能那么容易就分手的
这样只会让你更加难以放弃
却不会让对方再次回头选择你
除非大家都有意要和好

否则你一个巴掌是不可能拍响的
所以尽早打消这个念头吧
至于他是不是有意我想你自己心里比谁都明白
不要觉得自己有多可怜或者把自己弄的很可怜
这样做一点意思也没有
他不会因为你可怜而喜欢你
你说道理你都懂只是你做不好
不是你做不好是你不想做
你不是怕忘记他你是怕他忘了你吧
别说什么他离不开你的

其实分明就是你离不开他
他若是离不开你
他就不会不要你
整天死死巴着人家不放的人是你
不懂事的人是你
难道你没看出来吗
喜欢他不是你的错
想关心他不是你的错
控制不住自己不是你的错
但是那是你的方式

傻孩子.
忘了吧.所有你留恋的.你回忆的.你拥有过的.
那些.都已是记忆.
缺失并不可怕.
可怕的.是无法面对.

傻孩子.
勇敢看着镜子中的自己吧.
这个悲伤软弱满面憔悴的自己.
这也是你.成长中的你.
这个你.正在逐渐死去.
新的你.即将重生.
找寻你的路.你的未来.
你知道的.所有的浩劫.都是成长的祭奠.
做最好的自己.即使.一个人.

傻孩子.
你无法轻易忘记放弃.是因为你付出过.
付出了.她就会像柱子一样扎根在心.
不要刻意去逃避.刻意忘记.那只会让你更痛苦.
绕开这个柱子.寻找未来的幸福生活吧.
那里.有你的理想.

傻孩子.
开始新的习惯吧.
习惯.早上不再有人工闹铃.
习惯.每天一个人生活.
习惯.一个人过生日.一个人行走.
你逃不掉.逃不掉的.
那么.就勇敢面对.现实.
现实是.她已离开.一切.画上了句点.

傻孩子.
好.好.尽情发泄吧.
剥开自己的心.用文字.用声音.用所有能发泄的方式.
泄完了.就要振作.
看吧.你失去的.其实微不足道.
还有那么多人关心着你.以不同的方式.
所以.你并不孤独.
正是这样的失去.让你看清现在所拥有的幸福.

傻孩子.
别哭.别再哭.
不值得.真的.不值得了.
把过去尘封吧.别委屈.别不甘心.别不接受.
开始新的旅程吧.去遇见新的风景.新的际遇.
做你该做的事吧.有很多事.等待着你完成呢.

傻孩子.
所有的人都对你有信心.
所以.你也要充满信心.
你是坚强的.积极的.乐观的.洒脱的.
以前是.以后也会是.
总有一天.那个活力无穷傻气无尽的女金刚会复活.

傻孩子.
生活褪去了曾有的颜色.暂时宁静.
别沉沦在这片宁静里.那会毁掉你.
你要明白.虽然残忍.但这个决定.足够正确.
现在的生活.不是你想要的.
为了你的理想.你必须学会适时放弃.
给对方最好的关怀.就是.变的更好.更强大.更幸福.

现在我对你很好、很好、很好,
你不需要、你无所谓、你不在乎,你不珍惜。。。。
当某天,你被伤害,想起我。
那时的我再也做不到像现在这样一如既往、不顾一切的

对你好了。。。
因为那时的我,已经将你放低。。。。
原来,放低一个人,最后是被对方逼出来的。。。。
其实这个世界,真的没有非要谁不可,
走自己的路,别回头

Friday, January 1, 2010

Happy New Year 2010

Goodbye 2009, welcome 2010.

New Year eve party at the Coco Banana and the Opera, Pyramid. The Chivas and the parties animals in the club to welcome the year 2010. The street was crowded of people.
The Opera card
New Year , New Beginning,
New Life, New Hope. :)

Monday, December 28, 2009

Christmas in Penang

Merry Christmas ' 09
My 2009 Christmas day with the crazy and fatty gang. 4days 3nights stayed in 2 differents hotels and 9 of us. Here, our first night destination. With the Queen club Serena, sure we been the club night and we met the Malaysia basketball players, the special one Penang 2nd tall man.. Of course, Serena's fren now. :D

- Mois -

- Kelly the Chivas -

Seriously, I'm not the one who finished the 2bottles, of course I'm not stealing it back to our hotel. The gang finish it. Beside, they ordered some beers, Tequila and some other liquors. Gosh, it was an amazing liquor crazy party in Mois, Penang.
Before heading to Mois, groupie photo in Gurney Plaza.

- Tao restaurant, E-gate -
9 of us at the Tao restaurant for the Christmas buffet dinner. Awesome foods awesome nights, we order as much as we can, seem like it a bit forcing to finish all the seafood and sushi, finally we done with max. :)

- Mirror in Forever 21, Queensbay -
Went to Queensbay mall for a short while shopping and movie. Absolutely, Forever 21 ladies first shop visit. The mirror I found in the fitting room. The biggest mirror and look fantasy design. I wish I own a similar mirror in my future house. Ladies, movie for the day was okay~ and the gang learn some trolley experience that really funny and make all of us laugh out loud.

- Berjaya Hotel main door -

Before the 2nd day in Penang begun, let's capture the short snow man in the main door of our's hotel. Hello, Christmas... I smile with my big mouth. Although I haven take off my braces.

- Keh Lok Si -
A peaceful and silent place, a temple as well. Yes, I do pray over there, and make some wishes. Hopefully, all my wishes come true. Kinda tired to climb up from the first floor, but you will fulfill after you reach the upper of The Pagoda.
I had make a big wish with a sound *gong*
View from the upper floor of Pagoda.

- The mountain scenery, Bukit bendera -
The 3rd day visit the Bukit Bendera. Weather there was colder than the town, we went there for 30 min visit, 30 min photo camwhore, 30 min waiting for the cable car, and another 30min for sitting or standing inside the cable car. Scenery was cool, friends was fooled around, photos captured as our memory.

- Tanjung Bungah Beach Hotel -
Actually we plan for 3days 2night Penang trip, cause of some messy plan we went to the beach for Banana boat and swim on the last day evening, we have no public toilet to clean up with a body of salty smell. Finally we decided to get one more room for our last night in Penang. It was Saturday night, almost all the Ferringhi hotel was full. At last, we found this beach hotel, kinda standard and nice place for me. I love the white sand beach so much. A hotel key as myself souvenir.
The beach are beautiful.
- Last but not least -Groupie photo on the sand.
I have an awesome gang that make most of my time with laughter sounds, although our size are bigger than the normal. As friends as well, we had enjoy the trip. Although some unhappy and emo thing happened. I took it as an experience. Thanks for Kris as our Kicap, CJ and Trega drive us there, Steven as GPS direction, OCY as the noisy one, Jeff and Huat the entertainment one, and Serena the Queen !

My first trip without my family and bf,
my first trip with this crazy but close friends,
my first spent with my own salary,
my first Christmas in Penang.

A step a mark always on my heart ~

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Daddy Big Day

Daddy Big Day
- 20091215 -

Centro @ Klang Palace Restaurant

Awesome and costly dinner with my family members.
Since my elder brother moved to KL and busy of working,
it's been a long time we never had a family dinner.
I'm glad that he will coming back Klang everyday.
He is moving back to the main house with us until the coming CNY.
*wink*

- An empty wine glass before the dinner start -


Although I'm not very good in taste of wine,
I tried it as training. :)

Each of us can choose one of the shark's fin soup,
we took the different taste. Enjoy~

Grilled scallop.

Duck meats.

Handmade special TauFu

Grilled cut fish with vege bean

Fried noodles

Thanks for the treat, daddy~

This is mummy favorite, but we dint order it.
Let's wait for the next special day la...

Awesome dinner, lovely family
Happy Birthday, great daddy.
Love ya~

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Princess Yvonne Lim
Happy 21st Birthday...

- 10/12/2009 -


The Kitty jelly cake from Shen ( Yvonne's lovely bf)

Yvonne's kitty

The night view of USJ 1.

The lights like the star in the sky.
Simple celebration,
may it be a day of love, a day of utter bliss!
Have a year beyond your dreams,
Happy Birthday...